Pally Shelly

You’re a cute friend of ours,
that I want you to know,
being away from you for so long
we are feeling so alone.

I remember, when we laughed together
stomach was really in pain,
all people tried to stop us
but their efforts were in vain.

I remember, when we worked together
we used to dance all night,
everybody loved you so much
like a princess…….right

I remember, we were behind you everytime
to make u learn steps fast,
you used to be first in the line
when i was standing last

But then i also remember,
you went away so far,
I can count the talks we had after that
we started feeling under par

I remember, having choreo without you
we missed you really so much
we used to talk about you a lot
you were there in front of us as such

Too often we don’t realize
What we have until it is gone
Too often we wait too late to say
“without you we all are alone”

But now as you are about to come back
we will again have our jelly,
and i can get another chance,
to yell in madness….shellyyyyyyy

All in All

All I remember is everything
All she understands is nothing

All we have talked is us
All we have seen is eyes
All we have felt is breath
All we have shared is world

All she gave me is happiness
All I gave her is me
All we have is memories
All we lost is love

All we dreamt, is past
All I suffered is future
All I assumed is emancipated
All we know is emasculated

All I remember is everything
All she understands is nothing

unlove

I just wish I could unlove you
ya right….
I wish I could unlove youuuu

I wish last fight could be taken back
Its not even a year….
I wish last tears could be saved in a sack
You have always been my dear…

I just wish I could unlove youuu

I wish that argument wudn’nt have been the same
it resulted in fall
I wish that our planned vacation wudn’t have gone in drain
just because of that call

But Now…

I just wish i could unlove youuuuu

I wish i could resist stumbling upon some notes
and the pictures of u and me
I wish those can be left to rot
as they are forcing my eyes to flow in sea

I just wish I could unlove youuu

I wish i could erase the memories we have made
as they are ruining me now
I wish your face in my mind could fade
or I have to take this vow

I just wish I could unlove youuuu.

I wish I could just let your friendship go
I may not talk to you anymore
But man the love I have for you won’t leave
It’s leaving my heart so weak and sore

I just wish I could unlove you
ya right….
I wish I could unlove youuuu

JAI KUMAON

I can see nearly sixty angels coming in chateau
I can see hundreds of demons waiting for us with vow
I can see angry faces and gestures
I can see warm and innocent features
in our eyesssss
hmmmm…..la la la…
I can seeeeeeeeeee……..

I can see the new cell
I can see the walls of the hell
I can see me dancing on their tunes
I can see something coming out of their ears
like fumessssss
hmmmm…..la la la…
I can seeeeeeeeeee……..

I can see hell changing into heaven and demons into buddies
I can see all of us sharing cheese
I can see them there always to help
I can see us taking vodka’s in a gulp
with cheersssssssss
hmmmm…..la la la…
I can seeeeeeeeeee……..

I can see us all working together
I can see us adding something more like a feather
I can see others putting the knife in
I can see only one planet, in nine others,with life in
with joysssssssss
hmmmm…..la la la…
I can seeeeeeeeeee……..

But then

I can also see us loosing somewhere
I can see others happy everywhere
I can see great men crying
I can see some of us lying
in jestssssssssss
hmmmm…..la la la…
I can seeeeeeeeeee……..

Thogh,

I can see us coming again
I can see us in feign
I can see the new enthu all over
I can see all of us riding land rover
with zoomssssss
hmmmm…..la la la…
I can seeeeeeeeeee…….

And now

I can see all of us weaving
I can see us making promises to them who are leaving
I can see us adding another feather
I can see us dancing and singing in a gather
with whimssssssssss
hmmmm…..la la la…
I can seeeeeeeeeee……..

I can see us singing this song
And I hope for a very long
I can see us cheering again
with a liner which is fearing others again
JAI KUMAON.

Dedicated to all kumaonites and specially to those who are in final

year now and those who are passing out this year.

With love
Ravindra Kumar
Kumaonite.

Gobbledegook

Hehehe,well i know its quite weird to start writing with a lagh,but i m
not going to follow any of the usuall writing procedures.This lagh is
basically for those people (including me) who are not able to
decipher the heading of this post.But this is one of the word that I
came across during my assiduous fight against the vocabulary.

Well if you go through the articles in newspaper and magzines you
must have seen many people write bullshit but the whole article is
fabricated in such a way that you may be decieved by the authors
dexterity (u may include this one also in that category if u like ).
For example, Barkha Dutt,Managing Editor,NDTV 24×7,my god she
uses all high sounding words in her article,which are really not
required.I dont think that a common reader will be able to grab even
half of what she wants to convey.After all,not all readers are willing
to increase there vocab  by keeping a dictionary in front of them
while reading daily news.Newspaper is a way to give news to people.I
know its good to have a good vocab and if you have it,its your right
to show it  and all…..but i think  one should write keeping readers in
mind.

You can quote many examples like this.I know many of you would
be against my thinking.But I think if one really wants to increase his
vocab,he would go to book reading rather than reading daily news by
sitting in front of dictionary.

Anyway whatever it is,its fun for guy like me who is becoming word
freak these days.Well before closing i think its my responsibility and
honour to give you the meaning (if you dont know) of
Gobbledegook : language,specially used in official letters,forms and
statements,which seems difficult or meaningless because you do not
understant it.

Anecdote

“Ravi take your medicine,come over here ur dad wants to talk to you”

said my mom.

“coming mom” i said.

And then he went away,as he is one of the guy who is afraid of my
dad.Well i really dont understand why he behaves in this
manner.He’s not only afraid of my dad but of everybody else in this
world (except me,ofcourse).He is my best friend.He is always with
me, when i m alone.He is the only one whom i tell everything.

Let me tell you more about him.That was a beautiful night.I was out
for a walk after my dinner.My family was not at home so I had made
my dinner that night, but dicided to have it after the match, Brazil vs
France,ahh what a team,people call it BRAZEAL.Why shouldnt
they,you know what I mean if u r also a soccer fan.And you know
what??…. Brazil lost the match.I was dissappointed like hell.So I had a
bit of what i made for myself and then got out of my home for a
walk,beautiful night as i said earlier.You can see constalations in sky
quite clearly.And suddenly somebody came to me saying he know me
right from my school i was with him in 5th std or something.I dont
remember, to be frank.But i didnt tell this to him,as he seems to
know everything about me from those days,so i trusted him.Right
from that day we are again good freinds.He lives here with me in my
room now.

Two days later my family got back.I was really very happy to see
them,well actually i dont have to make dinner for both of us now.My
mom is a very good cook.Even he likes her food.I was just about to
introduce him to my family but i dont know why he went away.When
i told my mom about it,she said she want to meet him.

“Whats his name” she said.

“Oh i forgot to ask his name” i said
“but i will ask him next time”

And i did
“hey whats your name my friend”
“You dont even remember that,well no problem, i am Ram” he said

I really enjoy his company a lot,he makes me laugh,makes different
faces to amuse me,sometimes he makes face like other people,like
my dad,my mom,my sis… I really like that.He is just great.We talk a
lot,we share everything, I mean like about our latest crush,our likes
dislikes and everything that happens in our life in the whole day.

“Then i told my mom that his name is Ram”
That name flummoxed her.
“what did you said” she asked again as if she didnt heard the last
time.
“RAM” I said clearly
“Was he your classmate in 5th std.” her voice was a little louder than
usual.

“Thats what he told me,actually i dont remember” I said.
“why didnt you introduce him to us”
“He is always here in my room,you must have seen him last night
when you came to give me my cup of milk.”I said
“Ravi no body was there at that time” she was just crying,like hell.
“and then she went away calling my dad”

I dont know what were they discussing about,all I heard was that i
need to see a psychatrist.As Ram was dead in a accident,when we
were in 5th std.

well i dont believe it because as the matter of fact I meet him daily,in
night.So thats not possible.

What do you think????

Dark…ish

I lean back on the bench and look up at the sky.Two stars,a low-riding moon,dusty-haze.Cloudless but not clear.Not very dark but dark enough.Impossible to see anything falling.

                     -Mohsin Hamid 

The moon was yellower

The stars were twinkling as if they were hiding something from me,or may be trying to show me something.The night was getting darker and darker so stars are more clearer than they were before.The moon was getting yellower as if it is yellow and trying to run away from me.I dont know why sometimes everybody turns out be yellow.May be i m martinet.Thank god i have something called sixth sense i suppose that gives me a little hunch of everything.But i always wonder why all this happens to me.

    Am i sounding a boozed hound or something? Well, I am not, to tell u the truth.Still I am in a 'new' world where everything is dark except the twinkling stars and 'yellow' moon,as I told you.but i dont remember the 'old' one,anyway.So i was gazing stars,then suddenly one of them came close to me and said some uncanny things.I really want to talk to him,but he went away.One of my good friend told me that stars can profesy.So may be he was trying to tell me something about my future.I am a bit phlegmatic so i kind of ignored it.I was really confounded,so i discussed it with my ego and suddenly my unconcious came forward to tell me what star said.I was exited like hell.He brought his mouth close to my ear and
said 'Ravi wake up',
'what' i said.
'wake up Ravi its 8 o'clock'.

Aw man then i realized its my mom waking me up in the morning for tea.So i lost everything again,everything is yellower again.Lets see when will I get out of this world.

Love…is it?

"Do you love her?"
"yes" I said.
"Its not love,dear"
"shut up" I said furiously
"You are just fond of her,fearfully fond" he yelled
I was just about to cry.
And then I broke the mirror,
that might hurt him, as he was on other side
but then why he always go to my unconcious mind?
I just want to run away,
I just want to be in my world, not in the one which is on the other side.
or may be my side is the other one…

I am confounded 

Funeral

And then…
I can see the small pieces of sun
I can feel the sky by the thumb of my foot

but ya…
everybody was walking normally,
books were stagged on the rack
I can see the cover
though it was blurred,
and the flower had their color intact
I can atleast feel it
if not able to smell.

so everyone who whishes to attend the funeral,
let me know by friday evening.